Hope – The First 25 Years of a Dreamer

Hope made me
It also broke me
but I was never happy without it
I can feel spots of mould growing all over my brain
Whatever
I guess I’ll just keep living
and hope
that the problem solves itself

by Andreas Blaustein

Who The Fuck? – The First 25 Years of a Dreamer

Modern life demands so many things of me
I’m supposed to get eight hours of sleep each night
I’m supposed to work out
Get to work in time
If I have a job I don’t like
I’m supposed to simply find another job that I like
The problem is that I don’t like any job at all
I’m supposed to check my notifications from all the apps
I’m supposed to answer messages, e-mails and calls
I’m supposed to have a party, fuck, drink and meet new people
I’m supposed to know everything that’s going on in the world
I’m supposed to have an opinion on all of it
Whether I know anything about it or not is not important
And I’m supposed to remember
to have a lot of super duper fun and carpe the shit out of that diem
I’m supposed to live until I’m ninety
and die happy
Who the fuck can live up to all of this shit?

by Andreas Blaustein

Persian Goddess – The First 25 Years of a Dreamer

I don’t know if it got to you, if you’ve stopped breathing
If it happened, I hope it didn’t hurt too much in the final moment
I’m so sorry for everything
I’m sorry for not trusting you and I’m sorry for hurting you
But sorries won’t do any good
I’ll meet you later and make it right
I never met you in life, but I think I fell in love with you
At least for a moment
It’s just not fair that we found the missing pieces of ourselves
Without being able to put ourselves together
Like everyone else can
I wish you peace
You deserve it more than most

by Andreas Blaustein