Curse – The First 25 Years of a Dreamer

I have realized something
I don’t think I like being happy
I think that bitterness have become my comfort zone
I don’t know how it happened
or if I even want to get out of it
That’s the fucked up part
I love to sit around being sad about whatever
Feeling hopeless
Down and out
Dying
I think this drives many people towards drugs and alcohol
I don’t know what it means that I haven’t gone there yet
Maybe I will in the future
I’d like to say that this is a curse
But that would imply that I have no control over it
If I have no control over it, I can’t change it
But I know I have, and I know I can
I just don’t do it

by Andreas Blaustein

Don’t Listen – The First 25 Years of a Dreamer

Don’t listen to me
I’m just a kid who dreamt of flying
Now, at grown age, I’m still standing in the same spot and flapping my arms
while everyone else has passed me by long ago
I don’t have anything else to say
Just
Don’t listen to me

by Andreas Blaustein